***Warning! The level of optimism you read here is not typical. Do not expect it again***
I am here. I am at Mr.'s house. On his laptop...was on his back porch overlooking the amazing view of his backyard, but I got hot and couldn't see the computer screen so I moved inside. But anyway, yes, I am here for the entire weekend. Parker is camping with Grandpa Jeff and when this information got out, Mr. intived me to spend a relaxing lazy weekend with him. When I found out that I had to work today, I assumed that I would just come over later tonight so we could go hit up Oktoberfest (mmmm....cream puffs and struedle and beer, oh my!), but he inisisted I come over friday with everything that I need so I could go to work and then come straight here.....kinda sweet.
Last night was great. I accidently got a little drunk but we had a great time just the two of us. Most of the time we have been seeing each other Parker is around....which is great, don't get me wrong, but just us is pretty amazing and exciting and fun and sexy and silly. I enjoy being around him so much that I honestly could see him everyday....if my life allowed that of course. But inevitably, due to alcohol and being retarded, we had some sort of "talk" about our feelings towards each other. The normal Allyson, would have only listened to anything negative and not any of the amazing things he said to me, and I would not be here today. But I am here. I know he likes me. I know he likes Parker. I know he would be with me all the time if his life allowed it right now. All wonderful things. I am focusing on those things right now because I am having such a wonderful and happy time right now and regardless of how long it lasts, I don't want to ruin it today. Maybe I will think of the reality of our lives and the reality of where we both are emotionally and all that tomorrow.....actually, maybe on Monday. But right now, it feels so________. I can't think of the correct word. Comfortable? Natural? Happy? Good? or just fill in that blank minded part with picturing a smile on my face.
Did I mention how adorable he is? Because he totally is.