Monday, February 7, 2011
Today was spent waiting. Waiting for something to happen that I know will never happen again. Every time I looked at my phone I was disappointed. Half my brain said, "you are a moron, stop checking, you know there is nothing there and there won't be." The other half kept saying, "check your phone...you never know! (in a hopeful manner)." I hate that half of my brain, i would like to punch it. Today I was stuck on what was a routine. Tomorrow I think I will have to move my right foot. Then Wednesday my left. Maybe by Thursday I will be able to start my way from where I am right now. This place that I am now is an awful place. I can't talk about it without crying and feeling like a fool. Tomorrow I will not cry. And Wednesday I will not feel like a fool.
at 6:41 PM